Today was Ashton's First Day of Primetime Preschool with Ms. Jan. When we got there he started clinging to me when we were walking in and he said he's scared. I told him it is okay to be scared because it is new but he will have so much fun!!! When we got in the classroom he stuck by my side but was not clinging and was not crying. We found his name tag and put it on, he liked that, and then we found where his lunch box goes and put it away. I asked him what he wants to do, there were so many choices, he sat and decorated his name sign and I stayed with him and then I said what do you want to do next and he said "I need to decide, there are so many things." He decided to sit and play with the dinosaurs. I sat with him for a minute and then I told him that I was going to go, he said "I don't want you to leave." I told him that I will be back soon and he will have so much fun, "give me a kiss." He gave me a kiss and then I walked away and when I looked back he looked a little nervous but he never cried or ran for me. I cried the moment I left the sidewalk all the way home and then some more at home. I told Jake that "he just didn't know anyone maybe I should have stayed longer." Jake said "he'll be okay." I thought about him the whole time he was at school and I was so excited when it was time to go pick him up. So hard for me, these first days of school. I don't think they ever get easier. I feel a sense of strings are being cut and they are going out into the big scary world. Mom was a mess, but Ashton did great his first day! He said he had fun, he didn't get to play outside because of the smoke, he watched a short movie about a turtle. He said that for snack a girl next to him had square cheese and circle meat and she put it all together like a crabby patty, I asked him if that looked yummy and he said no it looked gross! He said the kids were nice but didn't really play with him. :) Overall, I think he had a great start!
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